It is kind of frustrating to see the PR debacle unfold – from the questionably true dailydot articles, the reddit bandwagon, the social media arguments, etc. And it all somehow revolves around CLG most of the time. It’s not as if the organization actively seeks drama (I should know), but the situation always seems to go against them. I guess it’s frustrating because it escalates to a point where people will mention me and, I don’t know, insulting the organization in front of the owner’s gf is just, what?

What do you want me to say? How am I supposed to react with anything that isn’t negative? Isn’t it obvious I’m going to be supporting CLG, no matter what? It’s not like they’re out murdering babies and looting houses or anything. Plus, getting compared to Regi/Leena was just a low blow. I have never worked with CLG’s management and I focus my time on growing my own channel and brand. It’s not a fair comparison so even bringing that up is just insulting to me.

Lately I’ve also noticed that if something bothers me, I’m more prone on calling out people. Just because it’s the internet doesn’t mean the right choice is always to “lel just ignore it and walk away!!1” No, fuck that. I feel a lot better confronting people and defending myself. And if I get blamed for my followers, then, well, I don’t think you should dish out something insulting in a public space and have the right to complain about that. If I’m wrong, I’m wrong. There’s always something to learn from the experience and apologizing is nothing to be ashamed of.

I’m definitely becoming a lot less patient than I used to be. I realize that I only live this age once, this time of my life once, and I don’t want to settle for anything less. At the same time, I have to make sure I don’t compromise kindness and respect to others because that is still the most important thing.

What do I write here…

I reactivated my blog so I can ramble because I always have a bunch of things going on in my mind but…now that I started I’m drawing a blank, yet again. Oh well! I guess you can’t force entries. SOON…WAIT FOR IT…! I’ll fill up these pages with my delicious melodramatic stories. Soon. 😀